Manifestation: Imagining you here but then not letting you go.
Lisa asked me to make two lists. One with all the things I’d miss, and one with the things I would not. I list my would-nots everyday, but the other one scared me to tears.
On the drive home I thought about letting go and how it feels when you don’t want to. I don’t know what it was. The freeway, lights, music. But I just broke. Maybe I just knew it was really happening.